A Miserable Failure

You would think that

fitting a cpap to a face

would not be very difficult,

as it's done many many times a day.

Leave it to this ole broad to have issues.

After three different types all failing to "seal"

properly we settled on a full face model

that was so tight to my face that 3 hours

after removal I was still showing

the divots in my face.

To sum up quickly:

I failed miserably.

I made it till the last hour required

after multiple times being

awakened by staff to change masks,

adjust monitors etc.

Still only slept a total of 2 1/2 hours.

Around 4 am I started to cough,

and then more severely

until I could not catch my breath.

Suddenly realized I could not

sit up enough to clear my throat

and I could not remove the mask

and I

could

NOT breathe.

Frantically clawing at the damn thing,

the tech ran in from down

the hall and yanked it off me and we both

were holding onto each other

saying damn that was bad.

Both techs were wonderful and kind

this time but it was still a total failure.

Will see if the Dr reviewing record will say

he has enough to order machine

but I'm not sure I can stand to sleep

with the dang thing.

So I signed the paper saying I quit the test.

I'm discouraged and defeated.

I'm going on hiatus from everything for a bit.

At least fall is here